Peace in the pain

I’ve been on a quest as of late to stop trying to fix things, stop trying to change my circumstances when things are difficult, to instead find peace and withstand it.

Is it wrong to want change our circumstances, pick ourselves up by our bootstraps and try to “un-do” bad decisions or choices to make our lives better, improve and shape sub optimal circumstances?

No I don’t think so.

But I’ve noticed in myself a proclivity towards making changes and adjustments when something hurts or is uncomfortable above trusting that there is utility and purpose to such experiences.

Rather than reflecting on the uncomfortable experience I want to rearrange, sort and solve problems, often without knowing the root cause of said problem and therefore not currently unaware of the best way to proceed so that “fixing” becomes more of a muting of symptoms or an escape instead of true resolution.

I wonder if you can relate? I wonder if you too find yourself trying to escape problems or discomforts?

It seems only natural, but at the same time futile, like child birth.

In fact, for me it’s a A LOT like childbirth.